I don't think he's ever received treatment for depression. He thought I must be insane because I do. He's probably never heard of ECT. I thinking of saying 'shock treatments'. It sounds scarier.


Or I would tell him that my psychiatrist is considering hospitalizing me again, because I've been especially impulsive and destructive lately (not entirely untrue), so I might not be around for a week. This would all give him an out. He could say he feels he needs to give me time to recover.


I can live without him, and I won't be going on Craigslist anytime soon. The first experience I had with the other guy I think was all I really needed. I'm still interested in this guy. I'm actually more attracted to him sexually, and think he would be a very exciting lover. There is no way this will end well for either of us if I let it go any further, though.