even though you upset me yesterday by calling me that word I cannot abide and i was who knows where for awhile and it was so hard and uncomfortable all the way around I still wish I could see you more than once a week the rest of this month because if I did, we could probably power through this ****. but you only gave me 2 more sessions - in 2 weeks and then 2 more weeks, and I didn't ask why. Maybe you're finally sick of me and wanting to get rid of me for good. I hope so. I really hope so. Because that would mean that you wouldn't send me emails like some ambulance chaser that make me want to come back. I never would have called you this time - if you hadn't emailed letting me know you were available.


And, you were really hard on me yesterday. i hope it was just your version of tough love or something. We'll see what happens in 2 weeks and I may or may not cancel the one after that. I mean ****, I can beat myself up way better than you can and save the hundred bucks.