Anyway, I wanted to post here because I thought I was being irrational but maybe I'm not. It seems like I can't make one single rational decision. I know that the definition of rational may change based on who you're talking about. It seems to me like rational means something different for everyone. But I'm not sure. I think my parents are going to react super negatively to me wanting to switch pdocs. They're going to accuse me of being irrational and I'm going to say no, etc., then I'll change my mind back and make 0 change. Ha. That's always the way it goes.