Most of your relationship has not been great according to your other thread. He abuses you when he's drinking. My guess is he's also abusive to you when he's not drinking. It seems you have to cater to his moods and his needs all the time. It seems like you're walking on eggshells to please him and cater to his whimsical moods.

People pleasing can end up getting you abused. Don't bend over backwards trying to please someone else for the sake of "love".

A healthy relationship involves respect AT ALL TIMES. Not just periodic respect, or periods of respectful behavior coupled by disrespectful behavior.

And a healthy relationship does not involve having to walk on eggshells, being afraid or nervous to talk to your partner.

This is not healthy. There are many red flags. Trust me, I stated in your other thread that I married an addict and an abuser. It got worse, not better, through marriage. Please rethink this one. Your mental health, your sanity and your health depend on it.