For me, when I was drinking, it served 3 purposes - to take away my near constant anxiety, to numb out so I didn't have to feel my emotions, and finally to feel "normal". By the time I quit, I was drinking so much, that I need alcohol in my system just to feel normal and function.


I knew it was bad for me, but I kept chassing that initial few moments of relaxation I'd get after a couple of drinks, but it never stopped there.

It sounds like you might be at a similar point.


I'd encourage you to talk with your Dr. about your concerns, and arrange to safely detox. They can give you meds that will help with the detox and keep you from having a seizure. And then I'd strongly urge you to seek out a treatment program, either residential or outpatient.

I also think it's important to have IRL support when quitting. There's AA, but there's also SMART Recovery, which I've heard a lot of good things about, and if you're female, Women for Sobriety, which is my program of recovery.

Admitting you may have a problem, is the first step on the road to recovery, so keep asking questions.

Please keep us updated on how it goes.

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