Hey Beth, I wish I could help, but I don't know the solution. All I can say is I'm in a similar place right now, so I know how awful it feels. I do think it's likely med- or mood-related. It shouldn't be this way, life should not feel like a pointless endeavor, and as far as I can tell it doesn't to most "normal" people. Most seem to find some enjoyment in life. Hopefully that means it's possible for us, too, to feel that again, even though it's nearly impossible to imagine that right now.