I'm doing alright. Have been having a lot of panic attacks lately though. Mainly over fear of getting kicked out of my apartment. It's not a logical fear because there's no reason I would be kicked out. I think it just stems from my childhood growing up homeless on and off and fearing that happening again. I also feel like I finally have something good in my life (this apartment) and I'm afraid it will be taken away from me. All of it's pretty illogical but is based on past experiences when I was a kid. It just creates massive panic attacks for me randomly. I think I need to discuss it with my therapist. Maybe talking about it would help because I've never brought it up before.

I'm done with caffeine now so I've been drinking herbal teas and decaf. Cause obviously caffeine's not good for me since I have panic disorder. I've been eating healthier too. Between that and starting metformin last month, I've lost 5 lbs! So happy cause I was stuck at a certain weight for a long time but it's finally coming off.

Have a lot to do this weekend, hopefully I can get it all done. I'm also doing a 30 day ukulele challenge I found on YouTube. Want to start practicing more frequently.

Hope everyone is good and has a safe 4th of July