Hi Woven. I am sorry you have an experience that was negative like that and you have a continuing stress about it. It’s human to get wrapped up in ones self and say things you later regret in some way.

Usually if the other person is healthy they are willing to allow you to restore your sense of personal power back. It’s when a person is capable of caring enough to forgive that you are just human and have enough worth that it’s ok. Not everyone can do that, it may not be in their character

People can disappoint us and leave us struggling like you describe.