There's still so much hate in my heart, from what happened. But what happened hasn't stopped me. I'm not ready to truly flip these feelings around on themselves and get rid of em'. That would mean a lot of vulnerability, and I can't be vulnerable right now. But the hate is there. I still have dreams and nightmares about it. When I have the capacity- and I will have it soon- you will be gone from my mind. And I won't have dreams about you. I won't consider you in my future. I'll be free. There's more to say about you. Not tonight, though. I think starting like this is progress enough for now.