I never acted particularly childish, even as a child. However, I do still feel youngish, but as a younger adult than I am. I'm heading towards 50. As for looks, as long as my graying roots are colored (which has been overdue because of the pandemic) I can easily pass for late 30s. Maybe mid 30s. My face has a rather youthful look and my personality is upbeat and energetic, and I have a love of humor and being humorous. I love to flirt with men of all ages, even guys in their 20s. But I do know I'm not in my 20s, so I realize they get a kick out of my behavior. I have no wrinkles, except a slightly deep vertical line between my brows that I hide with my bangs. I have a couple age/liver spots on my face, but they are not unbecoming. My only physical part that looks my age is my neck, that I work to keep more youthful-looking. My teeth are a little worn down from bruxism, but the gap between my front teeth gives me a younger look, I think. I'm about 18 lbs overweight, but many think I look less, including me. That makes motivation to lose it, less.

In some cases I am treated younger than I am, because my husband is 13 years older than me. Obviously many of his friends are in their early 60s. A late 40s wife is therefore from a younger generation. This bothers me a bit, but I understand. The fact that I've been on disability also affects how some people treat me. Sad, but true. For example, I don't have a career to brag about anymore, though I used to. Also, my husband and I never had any children. You'd better believe that affects how people treat you, especially as the woman. There is, indeed, a certain negative view towards childless women, especially towards women who never wanted children. It might have been different if we desperately wanted children, but couldn't have them. Friends with children often fall away because there is a disconnect that forms, in some cases.

I will say that I have lived a pretty full life even to the point where I am. I've traveled more and experienced more than many people my age. If considering that, I guess I could be looked at as older. It's just different, really. Again, it depends on what a person regards as a full life. If they think that never having children makes me seem less mature, then so be it.