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Originally Posted by swimmingly
Thanks cyclist. I wasn't really sure of this in time to call the pdoc during office hours and she sort of doesn't have emergency hours. sometimes her jerk secretary makes me feel guilty for even calling during the week. I'm to call the ER if I'm having an emergency. I'm holding on here without her, so I'm just buckling thorough the dizziness and self-hatred.. It's bad though. My wife's informed of everything I'm going through, and I'm setting small goals today. Going to try to get dressed while they do the grocery shopping and my big goal is to try to grill for them. I just want them to enjoy today. i feel like i ruin enough of their days, they should at least have good holidays.
How do you meditate personally, bpcyclist? I need anything to try. Something to kill the minutes between. Anytips are welcome here from anyone.
hugs and thanks to all. and vibes to those who need it
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I am so sorry, swimmer.
What I do is I lay down and close my eyes and breathe deeply. I try to focus on my breath, concentrate on that. Super, super hard when manic, of course. Each of the million times my racing thoughts carry me off, I rbring myself back and then focus once more. Over and over again for maybe 5 minutes, maybe 20, whatever. I do not judge myself when my thoughts carry me away. I just do my best. Some people count to ten, then start over again. I count sometimes, sometimes, not.
Hugs.