Well it has been a couple of days and I haven't cut. But last night in addition to my normal meds I took 12 sudafed and a whole bottle of Nyquil. That stuff was nasty but I drank it anyway then got pissed off this morning when I woke up. Anyway since we aren't supposed to post about suicidal things I'll tell you about my appt with my GP. He looked at my arm and said he thought the staples could come out as planned and they did on Thursday after waiting for 1 1/2 hours in the waiting room at the ER but anyway....he said he and his wife (my friend Susan) were very concerned about me and that some of what I'm going through I can control and some I can't and that I need to learn which is which. He gave me a hug and then sent me off for my EKG and bloodwork. Dr.Byrum is awesome and I respect him a lot. I talked to him again Sunday night because things were getting overwhelming again so I talked to him. He has such a good head on his shoulders. I saw my pdoc on Friday and he upped my Prozac to 80mg from 60 and I see him again on Thursday so hopefully I will be feeling better by then and not have to go anywhere.

Janniebug