I understand why he wants you to always go with him. We can’t control what other people want but we can control what we do. I don’t understand why you keep going with him if you want to stay home. “I want you to go out to get food”. “Sorry honey, I’d like to watch a show right now”. Simple.

I am not saying you have to always do what you want and it’s perfectly fine in doing something just to please your partner. But it’s only ok to an extent.

It seems to be a central theme of your relationship with him and possibly relationships with other men, just going by things you shared. You do what they want and how they want it even if deep inside you might disagree with it, you still do it to please them and often to a detriment to yourself.

And it includes small things like starving because you must wait for them and going out when you want to stay in and big things like financially supporting them. I know now might not be a good time for it but in the future it might be a good topic for discussion with a therapist: how not to be people pleaser.