Every time in my life that I've been in a large group of people, I encountered problems with being picked on and having mental health crises. I'm trying to battle it once again on social media, in a place that's supposed to be safe, but I'm having another crisis.

I can't tell if people paying attention to me are well-meaning but flawed or deliberately trying to hurt me.

I have experienced harassment lately in that environment, and that has made me terrified of everyone else.

If I assume people don't mean me any harm, then I'm running the risk of allowing myself to be publicly abused, but if I assume people are trying to abuse me, I may make myself impossible to be friendly with.

I'm crippled with confusion.