Yeah, I realized I had a problem with substance abuse after I realized that I feel so much better when I'm not using alcohol. I mainly don't drink to stave off depression. But that's as good of a reason as any. Know what I mean? Like there are no bad reasons not to drink. I got caught up for a while as to whether I had an addiction or not, but really, that just led to more suffering for me. Anyway, I hope what I said helps and also, there's plenty of support you can get for these kinds of issues.