I don't feel good, I just feel normal. I went off Seroquel (150 mg) slowly about 5 weeks ago. I want to say I feel good because I do- but really I just feel normal. Only thing Ive noticed is that I smile and tear up more easily but I think that's the normal me rather than the blunted me. I know we all want to be "the real me" but what does that mean? Is my normal real me the person I was before I was diagnosed or before I was put on psych meds? It is NOT the manic me or the depressed me- that is the ABNORMAL me! I'm talking about who I am at my core. Who is Moose? My body is screaming for me to get back to baseline as well- I have high blood pressure, prediabetes, high cholesterol, I'm overweight (formerly obese!) My liver is fat and I have cirrhosis of the liver which is irresversable- all from zyprexa and seroquel. And this isn't even my entire list of medical "complaints"! Who is the normal Moose? I have bipolar disorder but it won't have me! Finally it's time to be proactive not REACTIVE!