Every artistic person draws inspiration from their inner life. Even when they go through depressive, dark periods of life.

Mary Shelley had a nightmare, and her novel Frankenstein was born. If you've read it, it's very gory. She was a teenager when she wrote Frankenstein.

Some of my favorite writers were drug addicts or alcoholics or had criminal records. Some came from a background of abuse and homelessness.

I would say, you should reframe your "demons" as "artistic inspiration." And paint the heck out of a canvas.

There is no such thing as a "standard" answer when it comes to artistic creation. Sure, there are art schools that teach students technique and art history.

No one can "teach" artistic talent or inspiration, and it sounds like you have both of those in spades, pliepla. Instead of being "afraid" if your artistic inspiration, embrace it. Paint it. See how you feel afterwards.

It may be very healing for you to express what you see on to a canvas. That's what all artists and writers do.