One of the hardest things for me to remember is that it's all me, especially when I can't remember or don't have control. I can accept the bad stuff pretty easily but find something good that "I" have done unaware and I'm the first to deny it.

KT is still a part of you. Maybe we can keep reminding each other that so that one day we can accept all the parts that make us an "us".

I'm so glad your boyfriend was understanding about it (as he should be ). As you heal and grow, hopefully you'll have more awareness of things going on and the ability to have more of a say in things.