My therapist mentioned legally having to hospitalize me if another SI incident happens. She wants me in some outpatient partial hospital program too. She says she’s super worried about me and wants me to send her emails all week. I’m really scared to do a program because I’m worried there will be harassment because I’m trans. I plan on just ignoring her all week. Although I’m not sure outright ignoring her is wise based on her remarks about calling 911 and having the cops come to my house if I do anything. I’m just super tired about everything right now.

The good thing about today is that my tax refund came in and the guy in front of me at Starbucks paid for my coffee. So the day wasn’t all bad.