Just had a session where T was really wanting me to tell him exactly how far I went with this guy J. I just don't want to tell him. T wants me to think about "letting him in" to the relationship with J a bit more but I don't want to, like, analyze the relationship and find all the weak points, I just want to bask in this new-relationship-glow. I also feel like maybe a romantic relationship deserves some privacy?

Even talking with T about this really brought me down--I'd been feeling so happy and hopeful, now I am reminded of how bad things get when they are bad.