@bpcyclist: Hope you got some sleep. It sounds like you're thinking about some pretty heavy stuff at 3:00am. Remember how in "Infinite Jest" Hal helps Mario get to sleep by telling him to think "fuzzy thoughts"? My depression was a five yesterday, a one today, by the way.

@BethRags: Grats on your Big Day tomorrow! I'm sure it will feel great to be rid of the heavy plaster cast.

In my news, i'm in much better shape today than yesterday. I chatted with my neighbor again. I see her in the evenings when we take our dogs out. We sit in the courtyard under sheltering trees. I was so moved and comforted that she asked how things were re the issue i brought up yesterday about being so unhappy with Scrabble. It meant so much to me that she remembered my problem and followed up on it. I feel that she really cares! It was a great moment. Then we chatted about old TV shows. I really feel a lot healthier for getting some positive social contact. It's done me a world of good!

I felt so good i even took a shower, my second in two days, best i've done in months. I ordered groceries today and feel good about having a stocked kitchen. My meds came on time for the first time ever but they forgot one thing. Can't win 'em all!