So, 9 days ago I let my neighbors who I am friends with know what is going on, then left to stay with a friend.
10 days ago I saw my therapist, and received coaching on how to break up. He had me wrote a bullet-pointed script that made it all about me and what I am looking for. Skirted the violent fear altogether and blessed him for the things he said he wanted - to be free of the "burden" to do what he's passionate about - business.
I have continued to stay with friends, but will return home in a few days.
Next step on my work with my therapist is dealing with how I got sucked into this in the first place.
I have joined a Facebook support group for survivors of narcissistic/sociopathic relationships. And have reached out to friends and family to not go through this alone.
The pain is devastating and deep. I feel like I've been stabbed and am bleeding out. Not really functional at all. But I am moving forward with the knowledge that the pain will heal and that I deserve so so much better. I am so grateful that I posted in this forum and for everyone's honest feedback.
My therapist reminded me when I was feeling terrible that I didn't pick up on the red flags, that love is truly blind. It's not easy. But I will get through this wiser and stronger.