Luckily, my hobbies are such that I don't have to leave home (good in quarantine situation), but on the unfortunate side, I don't get to meet people. In current social distance situation, sadly, I won't be meeting people in quite some time. Also, any groups, and churches are not recommended now. So only social circles I could join are online. But I am not so lucky in that area.
Since I am illustrator, comic artist and writer for hobbies, I posted some of my work online but received no views. I know I should work for myself and my own satisfaction but to be honest, I would really like someone else also to enjoy my work. But no one ever visits my pages, on either social media. That also saddens me a bit.
On this topic, he is now sending me messages that he is worried as he didn't hear from me in several days, but at this point I really don't know what to reply. So I don't. I am not being evil or trying to hurt him, I just don't know what to write. IT's silly at this point after 13 years that we are messaging each other like teenagers. There are phones, we live like 4 km from each other. I can't message anymore, it is just not enough anymore. He sounds like he is worried, but I am not sure anymore, is he really worried about me, or he just needs someone to adore him and listen to him. I faced him before with this dillema but he was offended, and sad. How could I even think that? How couldn't I? What gets me is that after all these years I am starting to realise, he really is authentic. He is not pretending, there is no agenda, he honestly thinks this is great relationship. And he is seriously saddened and surprised when I question that. I have no idea why is he like that, everyone has some weird personalities but this hurts other people.