Someone caring about me does not automatically mean they will reject me. Although this has happened a lot of times, with my parents, therapist and some ''friends''... I used to always blame myself for this, for all these rejections. These cruel rejections and other things have caused severe depressive episodes (diagnosed but not treated properly - I was repeatedly rejected by professionals..irl) I'm reading a CBT workbook at the moment. I looked for a therapist online yesterday. The price of them is far out of my price range. Some of them might offer sliding scales (maybe).. I don't think I would trust them though. In this country it is rare to ..

Do you feel that you will be rejected by people who get to know you? Does this impact your mood and trigger severe depression or other episodes? Do you trust people? I mostly do not. I've been very disappointed by 2 people I thought were friends in the last week, not anyone in this bipolar forum. They cut me off in a mean way and I didn't think I had done anything. I wonder if I did something I am not aware of.

I also miss a couple of people from this bipolar forum who I was quite close to who have disappeared. I worry about them. I think that people here, at least those I engage with are ''real''... I also am ''real''...