HH, I don't think yours is a locked in situation. I think you have been very brave these last few weeks. I think you have been honest and forthright. I hope that coming on Psy Cen has helped to clear up issues -- so you can move forward and address the issues one at a time.
I think no matter what happens, HH, you yourself are on a tremendous growth curve. You have dreams and aspirations. You have bravery. You are honest. You are spiritual. Frankly I can see why your partner wants to hold on to you!
I absolutely know you are going to do what's right for you. It has been very rough...but you have sailed your boat through all the storms. You are a strong woman.
I want to tell you that I admire you, I wish you well, and really, I wish your husband well too, and I hope he finds the help to engage with effective and creative change.
Blessings on both of you. No matter what happens...you have come far, so very far, in a short time, and I hope you feel good about that, HH.