He took me out on a romantic dinner "date" last night. It was very nice.

I am feeling very cautious and only slightly optimistic. I feel like the current crisis has been averted and that a bandaid has been placed over the relationship for now.

I am fully aware of the fact that I may still have to leave him. In fact, I had a dream last night where I told him (again) that I am divorcing him.

But divorce no longer needs to be on the table right now. Right now, we need together to identify a couples counselor. I already asked my own therapist for referrals.

I don't know how I feel. I am still exhausted and worn out from all the recent stress. It has felt like a mini-crisis going on for me. Or perhaps even a full-blown crisis, I don't even know. All I know is the last several weeks have weighed heavily on my shoulders, carrying this burden silently while talking to lawyers and planning an exit strategy.

I guess now I need to create a new thread with a new title....

I'm so tired. It's been really challenging to be working and to have this going on in the background.

I am talking to my CEO today to just chit chat and catch up. He is aware of what has been happening. We're friends of sorts... or we're friendly and often talk on a personal level. He has marital problems too, which he shared with me. I appreciate that I can share what's going on with me. It's that kind of a close knit work environment. They call it a family.

My thoughts are scattered right now, as you can see. lol.