I keep thinking either I'm already dead and this is the afterlife or I'm still alive and what are the odds that that would happen given everything I've been through/done unless I'm invincible? And the storms that just "miraculously" always miss my area (I put "miraculously" in quotes because I'm kinda upset that we never get storms. I used to want to be a tornado chaser and it's still kind of a dream but not a goal of mine). The more I think about it the more I genuinely believe I cannot die, but I also realize that there are billions of people on this planet that haven't died yet and that doesn't mean they won't and I could be one of them. So I get both sides of the argument and I'm favoring the invincible side, but I feel like that's irrational.
Ideas?