When I was a child, I had a teacher who was very rough on me. He would humiliate me, shame me, etc, if I did not get things right. For example, performing tasks such as tying things would lead to him calling me names, yelling at me that I am stupid, etc. It became so intense that every time I had to tie things (even at 23) I became intensely anxious and nervous that I avoided doing them. Every-time I thought of tying something it brought me back to that moment. I recently begun EMDR therapy and these unprocessed memories negative effects on me vanished. I would get intensely anxious thinking of it, and sometimes I would have visual memories of it bringing me BACK to that exact moment, feeling anxious, humiliated.
What are your guys thoughts on this? I have recovered and it feels like a new world to me with EMDR therapy. I am wondering if this is PTSD.
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