You are using women.

That may sting, but it is what is happening here. You want to use a woman to meet your unfulfilled needs. And you find women willing to be used by you, because they are using you back to fill their own needs.

Wondering why you allow yourself to be used is disempowering. You subconsciously want the woman using you to change. Aint gonna happen. You have no power over changing another.

Wondering why you use women empowers you, as that you can change. The only one you can change is you.

And you can change. I'm a living example of that. I grew up bipolar since I was a teen, and an incredibly dysfunctional home. I was filled with fear, depression, insecurity, and all the problems that bipolar moods mixed with teenage angst and hormones bring. I had no parental support whatsoever to help with that, or even love shown to me. I was surrounded by mental illness from those who were supposed to raise me. I started doing drugs and alcohol at 13 trying to find stability.

There was one requirement for me to be in a relationship. They paid attention to me. And they were as equally broken in their own way as I was. Needless to say, my relationships weren't healthy.

I realized I was the problem, and I was the only one I could work on. For myself, I turned to spirituality. But that is only one path to fulfillment. There are many.

I wish you success and happiness in your life's journey. Things can change if you decide you want them to be different.