Any time I am anything other than nice. Even just like, neutral. Or short in an email.....I feel I have done something wrong. I over apologize. I try too hard with people who don't appear to care as much about communicating with Me. People who don't care as much about My feelings, I care about theirs and how they see me and how I come across. It makes me sick.

**** everyone. I as a woman was socialized that way and I'm so sick of it. **** YOU MEN. **** YOU to anyone who preys on niceness.

I'm done with all this ****. Excuse me while I go vomit for the rest of my life.

I'm reading a book called the nice girl syndrome. I never knew how much I needed it.