Yes, I had the same reaction to teletherapy, especially the sudden changeover. I was already in a nasty episode at the time, and I had expected my therapist to be there for me to help me through it. With the sudden change to teletherapy it felt pretty much exactly as you describe, like a gross betrayal. I felt like the fact that they just dropped me like that in the midst of an episode showed that they didn't really give a damn. I ended up in a full crisis and now I'm still dealing with the fallout, as I think you are, too.

All of that. Yes. The feeling of being dropped on the ground was nothing less than traumatic.

Luckily the crisis team that I eventually ended up seeing was able to offer me face-to-face therapy to bridge the gap and there was a Pdoc there that I really like who helped me a lot. I'm actually kind of sad I can't see her anymore. Now I'm back with my regular therapist and trying to rebuild, but it takes time.

That's good, good that you were able to have that support during a very vulnerable time.

I'm doing better with teletherapy than I had expected to; nevertheless, I'm prepared for therapy to entirely fall apart and end at any time. It's not a good feeling, at all. I can't shake it. Like you said, it will take time, and a lot of patience.

I suppose if they had told me in advance that we would do teletherapy and it was only for a few weeks, I might have been able to deal with it. But in general I just don't feel the same kind of connection with teletherapy. And now that this has happened I think I'm less able to deal with teletherapy or gaps between my sessions than I was before. Now I'm even having trouble with one session per week, bridging the gap from one session to the next.

I see my therapist twice per week. To wait a full week became very, very difficult, so a few months back I asked if we could do 2 times per week. She agreed. Is there any possibility for you to see your therapist 2 times/week?