So I'm depressed. I'm trying to keep busy but I'm really tired. I'm trying to stay positive but I really just want to sh at least. I know I can't and it bothers the hell out of me. I need to be strong right now. Im trying to destract myself. I spoke to t today. She's trying to get me to be hopeful. I can't wait for my colored pencils to come in. That's all I'm looking forward to. I don't see pdoc for about 5 weeks. I talk to t next week.