I am still trying to figure out just exactly how I am supposed to find out who or what is at the center of my guilt complex. Has it grown from my lifelong need to be the good little girl and continuously push away my shadow parts? Is that why I have never truly "grown up", because I need those parts that I pushed away and continue to deny in order to grow up?! Damn it why couldn't we talk this week. 15 is stomping petulantly.