This is really hard. Somethings are really hard to ask for as well. I missed out on good touching when I was little. I have asked my T (before pandemic) how can I heal from these things like touch, if that isn’t part of therapy. He said he touches other people but not me. And that I have to find ways to soothe myself and hug myself etc. I’m stuck with it, I don’t feel like I can heal from it, and it was awful to hear. I don’t feel able to bring it up with him again. I’m sorry I don’t have any answers, I guess I just wanted you to know you aren’t alone.