This is how I feel, too. I'm greatly affected by everything. My kids were upset and they both seem fine now. They're not exhibiting any signs of stress. Since that evening, we've both taken measures to keep things positive and normalize things.

The only backup plan I have is to wait for a new unit to open up, as I've been on the internal waitlist for a few years now. I can't afford to do anything else.

I'm unable to return to work until February 2021 now, due to our options regarding medical benefits and lack of childcare.. nor can we afford daycare x2, under our circumstances. Then, I'll have to return full time.