It's been five days since i've been off Scrabble. Things seem to be better. No intense frustration or anger. I've gotten back to some simpler hobbies and have been heard to laugh a few times. The days have been a lot steadier tho i still have daytime depression that eases in the evenings. I'm very sad about Scrabble tho. It's hard to give up something i put so much work into and my one toe-hold in the world. But doing something that makes me unhappy makes no sense.

I guess there is always the possibility that not spending so much time and effort on Scrabble will allow me to find a new passion. But i doubt it. I had a hard time quitting a drop-in that was making me unhappy. Once i did, i didn't replace it with a new activity. I just seem to be getting more and more inactive. I'll qualify for seniors centers in a year (55) so that's a possibility. But that's still a year away.

Hugs to all who struggle!