Well I woke in a rage-y mood right off the bat, I told Steve yesterday I am calling Lawyers on Monday to get an idea of cost of a will and medical POA's . Second marriages always make wills tricky, he has 3 boys and I just have my daughter. I think if we both were to die next week that his boys should get 50% and my daughter the other 50% . No he feels it should go 25% to each. Then the will its self will get messy, If he dies and I stay here until I die is fine but he mentioned in the past that I should give the boys there 75% of what I get out of the place if I sell I may not be able to stay here and fix anything that needs repaired myself or be able to pay someone to do it and maybe one day I cant live alone.. So yeah I will have to live off my SSDI and he does have a very small life insurance for me ... This is going to be a giant cluster F !!!

Today we found our hot water tank is leaking and has to be replaced, We have decided to go with a tankless unit. so 350 and up and up and up

I dropped my phone and despite have the tempered glass on it it shattered my screen so I found a well reccomended guy local that can fix it Tuesday 90.00

It feels like there is something in my throat blocking things, It always feels like there are like a bunch of pills stuck, Same whether I eat or drink. This has been going on for a while, getting worse tho, I have a nodule on my thyroid and have for years that we monitor yearly, But with COvid everything is on hold for non emergent testing since our numbers doubled since yesterday. maybe there is a turnip or potato growing in there.

So from the first day of this god awful year its been one thing after another and another.. I'm exhaused mentally and physically, I want to throw my hands up and walk away from my life.. I'm just so done with it all... I'm safe so noone worry.. I am just so over Every God Damn Thing