(((((phoenix))))) I know how your feeling. Somtimes I feel broken and I don't know how to put myself back together again. Somedays I feel whole and I grab on to those days for dear life. Often times I wonder why I must go through such horrible pain. It hurts. Crying. Too much to deal with at times. But then I realize what I was put here to do and that is to be the best mother and wife to my three children and husband. I know that sometimes it's even hard to stay focused for tose reasons but sometimes it's the only thing that gets me through and my will to overcome this horrible disease. I just wanted to let you know that your not alone and we are all here for you. I hope you have brighter days ahead. In fact I'm sure you will. Take care now and always.