Ah, I know, it's terrible. That has always been my approach whenever life gets gritty. Just push through, fight on.

I will definitely (and carefully) check out the links. It'll definitely help with the procrastination part.

The part that I don't yet know how to address are the physical and emotional triggers (that -facepalm- I forgot to fully mention before). For example, the muscle tension and aches that happen when I force myself to do something that triggers me (like this silly monster paper), the panic I feel in front of it (and that keeps coming back), the tears that come to my eyes, or the rage I feel inside, the need to scream, etc. Normally, I stand up and try to walk it off, or sometimes I clean things (or myself, I tale a shower), but it all takes time, is there any faster way to regain focus and stop the pain? Any technique for that?