(((((((( meccorad ))))))))

Mmm.... You don't necessarily have to share with your family, you can seek professional help without telling the world about it if you don't want to.

You could continue your studies and see a therapist at the same time?

I don't see failure in your writing here, I see someone who is aware that they need to do something about it. It's your decision, but there is nothing wrong in seeking help at all.

Good luck.