I think I know what you're going through. I went into T about two years ago, after the death of a parent. I thought it was prolonged grief, perhaps a bout of depression brought on by stress. Everything blew up when I stated talking about the physical abuse, which I had always viewed in a very clinical sense before. I had no emotions attached to the memories at all, just these detached recollections of awful stuff happening.

As I began talking about it, I "thawed out"--the emotions I thought I didn't have were really just frozen and the thawing out sucked! It hurt so bad and, to be honest, often still does. My T encouraged me to begin the slow process of talking about it, feeling the shame and the anger, and putting the memories back into place in my history. So you are NOT crazy, you're not losing your mind. You're in a place where you are strong enough to face what has happened to you.

Take this at your own pace. It's brutally hard to face the shame and the self-blame, but if you can be strong during this time, you may find great relief. Being able to talk about it in T gives you the opportunity to reevaluate what you think about what happened, and how you feel about it. If you can be brave enough to discuss it, you can begin to realize it wasn't your fault and it didn't make you bad.