Had T appt. today. I unexpectedly choked up right off the bat. Cried at numerous junctures. Things are really getting to me. Current situational stuff and old/lifelong trauma stuff. An overall feeling of deep despondency. I'm hesitant to call it depression though, because I'm still basically functioning. That about sums it up.

Yesterday I wanted to just scream, "why doesn't everyone just line up and tell me everything that's wrong and unacceptable and stupid AF about me?!!" after getting groused at by a bus driver (being the third incident of getting chewed out within 24 hours) whom I had just apologized to, for my apparently unforgivable ignorance of a moved bus stop. FFS!!!! I just want everyone to lay the **** off already! Excuse me for existing!!

Yeah. Not doing so well.