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Originally Posted by Innerzone
Had T appt. today. I unexpectedly choked up right off the bat. Cried at numerous junctures. Things are really getting to me. Current situational stuff and old/lifelong trauma stuff. An overall feeling of deep despondency. I'm hesitant to call it depression though, because I'm still basically functioning. That about sums it up.
Yesterday I wanted to just scream, "why doesn't everyone just line up and tell me everything that's wrong and unacceptable and stupid AF about me?!!" after getting groused at by a bus driver (being the third incident of getting chewed out within 24 hours) whom I had just apologized to, for my apparently unforgivable ignorance of a moved bus stop. FFS!!!! I just want everyone to lay the **** off already! Excuse me for existing!!
Yeah. Not doing so well.
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Sorry to hear that, Innerzone.
For what it's worth, many people right now are HIGHLY stressed and/or depressed because of the pandemic. As a result, they tend to be VERY short tempered and snappy. I'd argue that their frustrations are not reflective of who you are as a person, but rather, reflective of the situation that's going on around us. So personally, I would not put too much thought into people's reactions toward you because I think you're a good person and what you're seeing is people releasing bottled up stress.
Not to be overly negative, but I think sometimes people need a way to release their anger and frustrations, and so when they cannot find a healthy way to release the mounting stress, they may use any situation as an excuse to blow up, no matter how small and insignificant that situation is. Just what I've noticed.
