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Jul 15, 2020, 10:47 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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Originally Posted by Startingagain
The problem with being manic and then having it under control, is that 'mania' makes everything exciting and it is easy to motivate yourself. I don't know how your meds affect you, but I went through many different combinations over 22 of my first bipolar episode. Being flat is horrible. I believe that everyone has there own combination of meds that work for them, so I think you should keep trying new ways, but don't do it without you Pdoc knowledge, because if something goes wrong, your Pdoc will be able to bring you back.  |
Hi Startingagain, thank you for your answer.
That's absolutely true - mania (or better, hypomania...full mania is a big problem for me) is its own motivator.
I've been on so many meds and med combinations, it's embarrassing. It seems to me that at this point, my current pdoc (I've been with her for about 3 years) believes that I'm stable, so why rock the boat? But living with this blllaaaahhh is...to me, it's not stable. It's half-dead. I feel like a fish lying on the sand, just near the water but not in it, and there I am with my mouth opening and closing, gasping for air.
I appreciate your understanding. When I have my appointment with her tomorrow, I am going to try to be assertive and really impress upon her that something needs to be altered. If I make a list of how I feel it would look like depression. But I don't feel depressed, I just feel almost entirely unmotivated.
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