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Originally Posted by peaches45
Sorry you are having such a bad time right now. I know the feeling of walking around empty and meaningless. This has been my mood for the past couple of days. Things will get better. It all takes time and truly is a process. I am finding I have to find myself again before I can contribute to my family emotionally. Writing in a journal helps. And what has helped me and my husband is a communication book. It is easier for him to know what I am going through if I write it down then he reads it.
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Thank you, and you're right of course. I do journal but I haven't tried a communication book yet. I have issues expressing my emotions, it always makes me feel like I'm manipulating people or trying to attract attention, so I tend not to do that sort of thing.
I reckon I'm down to just a few good weeks a year at this point. I don't even want to know what that adds up to over a lifetime. You must be right that things will improve, it's just kind of hard to see that now or to even remember what it's like to be stable. It's not just that my own life feels meaningless, but the whole world feels unreal and I can't connect to other people or the things they do at all, and I can't relate. Makes me feel like an alien just acting out a role in order to seem "normal" but always being utterly isolated when it comes down to it.