Please excuse me for any mistake in english

I want to briefly try to tell something

I've been living the last years of my life being heavy on my parents because I thought I've been neglected during an important period of my life
I blamed them for things that went wrong in my life and i've been way too aggressive to them also because i've been into a psychotic state lately

I deeply regret it now that my father is passed away and my mum is getting old and i see all the kindness and the work they put in family that i failed to see before

I'm not saying one must not analyze the situation and be aware of what can happen into families, but sometimes it can be dangerous, too

One should be able to find a balance in judgement, i think...