Hi Mr. Moose. I am very sorry you had to deal with that. I also don't want the kind of companionship where I have to worry every day about what abusive, sneaky, stab-me-in-the-back type of behavior I am going to have to deal with today. I don't want to have to gird myself for the next nasty, malicious things he will say. And, I especially don't like going through marriage counseling when he lies, refuses to accept any responsibility for his actions, and really only wants a divorce and to do this for show. So, I understand what you are saying and the logic of the situation... but my emotions still don't want me to be alone in old age.

I'm thinking it will just take some time for me to get used to the idea that my future is going to be very different than what I have been working toward. Dreams die hard.