Yes it is harder to get creativity going by the way I described. I would much prefer if it came on it's own through motivation but that's just not an option for me.

I understand what you mean about seeing 5 colors versus 15 but it's you that's seeing the colors in both cases. Just try to remember what you were feeling then and try to recreate it.

I'm not saying it's easy but for me it works because I haven't found a med or lifestyle that's helping me out of the depression I'm in so I had to do something. I know I'm a creative person so I dug deep to try to bring it out again despite the depression.