Well, I am glad that your boys are a little bit older. It's really hard when they are young and unable to take care of themselves. I know it's hard when they seem to be handling it better than you are. I am sure they still hurt for you and your marriage. Nobody wants to see their parents unhappy. You are a good father and it sounds like you have helped raise good boys. I am sure they are happy to know you are going to therapy and getting better.

So many parents just give up and remain their same broken selves. You are an awesome guy for getting better!

I think you might be greiving the loss of your marriage. To me it felt like a physical death of something and someone I loved very dearly. It helped me to talk about it in that way. If you want you can talk about it here where no one will judge you. What do you miss most about your marriage, if you don't mind me asking?