Hello again, Beth, I hope your therapist is back on Monday! I sure hope so for you! Since your pdoc says your meds are supposed to help stabilize you and stop suicidal ideation, maybe she needs to have another look at your meds. Maybe raise one or choose another med so the suicidal ideation is gone for good. I wish you the very best. And I hope your Achilles tendon will soon be pain free -- that sounds like a tough operation to have to have.